Now is 0933 in the morning, and I’m over at my grandma place. As usual I went to have my morning jog at the park near my house with my mum. I slept late last night, now a bit tire…. Today is a public holiday, its ester day…. Don’t see a single rabbit hopping around with eggs…. Lolz… okay, lame…. But still can walk…. Lolz…. Wanting going to freeze to death if she read this blog…. Wahahahaha…. I’m thinking what I am going to do for today, been thinking for days now yet still no clue…. All I did for these past few days was downloading wallpapers from a particular webbie…. Watching animations from I downloaded in the past…. Hiaz…. I’m bore to death…. The haze this morning almost killed me…. It was so thick and the smell was terribly awful…. Till now the haze is still there…. Having difficulty in breathing every now and then…. Okay, I’m sensitive to haze…. Or can say I’m asthmatic…. The weather is hot…. Freaking hot, sweating like hell…. Because of the stupid haze make the weather so hot…. Now don’t even have a bit of natural wind blowing…. I’m wearing spaghetti strip clothing and three-quarter pants to make myself more cooling…. Can’t really stand the weather…. Didn’t really do anything yesterday…. Been lazing around the whole day at home…. Nothing to do…. Have not contact Dave since Wednesday…. Too busy to entertain his guests from Canada…. Lolz…. Like that better anyway, don’t have to listen to his naggings and his stupid jokes…. Sometimes his stupid jokes are too stupid where I don’t even know whether to laugh or not…. I’ve been thinking about me and him…. Our relationship as friends are far too close…. Just like what wanting said to me, “we are like in a relationship, just that we don’t have the status”. But Dave has not able to let me have the feeling that I can lay on his shoulders when I needed so…. Though he was there for me every now and then, but the way he treated me, I feel like as if he’s treating me like his young his sister…. I wonder if he has ever realized that…. If I tell him this how will he react, will we still be the same like now….? I don’t know…. Feels good to be around him, but too much problem in me…. I was in the bus just on the way to grandma housing, where there was a little boy sitting in front of me and mum…. He’s so cute…. I was playing with him all the way till I had to alight…. He was acting shy…. Lolz…. Babies…. Unlike Rysher, he won’t even think of anything and will go up to kiss that lady…. Lolz…. Take my hands off him….
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Mayowanaide to ienakatta
Todokanai omoi mo aru
Samishisugiru egao ga yurete
Kizu wo nazotta, “lonely Good-bye”
Jounetsu sae itamu yo
Eien no kakera oikakete
Kimi ga sora datta, yume datta
Moe taketeru hibi wo
Wasurenai, omoide ni shite
Sono mune wo kazareba ii
“Searching for my life”, mata itsuka aeru ne
Toumei na me wo aishiteta yo
Ima wa, sorezore no michi susumu “restarting”
I couldn’t say “don’t get lost” (Kimi ga sora datta – you were the sky)
Feelings that can’t reach also exist
Her overly sad smiling face was shaking
Tracing a wound, “lonely good-bye”
Even passion hurts…
Chasing after a piece of eternity
You were my sky, you were my dream
Those burning days
Don’t forget, make them an unforgettable memory
Something with which to decorate your heart
Searching for my life, we’ll meet again, won’t we?
I loved those transparent eyes
But, now, we’re walking different paths… “restarting”
P.S: The songs I put in there, are the ones which reflected my feelings at all times.... I have written it in both Kanji and English....