Today, 12th May 2005, Thursday, I skipped school. I’m still emotional unstable. Yes, I’m still breaking down. I had skipped school since Tuesday. And yesterday was my off day. Though I was emotionally unstable, I went to visit my grandparents in the morning. I thought going out to have a walk would make me feel better. But I was wrong. It didn’t help me at all. When I reached there my grandma started to complain to me about my grandfather. I thought I could have a peace of mind there. Yet I was wrong. It made me feel more terrible than ever. I could not stay there long so I decided to go back home. At least it’s much quieter. Sheena just called me. Asking if I want to join them in a school outing. But I have to sign up at the school library now. I want to have some peace. I don’t think I want to make a trip to school on purpose just to sign up for that thing and then go home again. And even I wanted to, by the time I reach there, the registration might be already close. My dad is back from work. I wonder why he is back so early today. Not my problem anyway. I have been watching history documentaries, listening to classical music for the past few days. I feel like I’m becoming another person. A person whom I don’t even recognize myself. Is that a change of a personality? I don’t know. I want to have some peace and quiet life at the moment while my father is talking so loudly on the phone. Irritating…. Is it that hard to ask for a quiet place and moment? I had just planned my schedule for today. What I need to do to make myself occupied and to relax. My father just went out to somewhere. Now at last I can have some peace. I’ll be going back to school tomorrow for lesson. And my father will not be working tomorrow so in order to have some peace, I rather go school. Okay I admit that I wanted to be alone. I don’t wish to talk to anyone at the moment. I hate to talk now. Talking to anyone doesn’t make me feel good at all. It just makes it worse and I just want to do my own stuff. It’s so peaceful now.