First day of school sucks like hell…. So pissed off with the year 1’s…. Where the hell are their sense of punctuality and responsibility? Made me, Rui Rong and Wanting waited for so long and still walking slowly to return the equipments. I’m thinking of the future and not now. I wonder what will happen to the club after they take over. Everything is going to be a mess…. I can imagine now…. Everything on my mind. How are they going to lead the incoming one’s after they take over….? We are trying our best here to make the club a better one, but looks like it’s going to crash soon…. Like that I might as well ignore it. It’s a waste of my time and effort (including Rui Rong and Wanting) as it’s going to crash anyway…. I thinking I may having pms and other might think what I’m behaving right now am ridiculous. But I know what I doing and exactly what I want or should I say the expectation from them. The reason I stay in this fucking club is because of the something. I don’t want to say here. Anyway I once promised someone not to give up so easily, but now I don’t think I can still keep that promise. Sorry to that particular person. It’s just that things just go out of the way when it’s already well planned. Everything is just being planned nicely and no one is going along with what is plan for them. Then in the first place, why plan when no one is going along with it. It’s a waste of time. I’m tire, my eyes are dry and in pain. I think I should sleep early tonight and don’t go online. It sucks. Since even I’m online, no one’s going to chat with me anyway. It’s just another waste of time, money and electricity. I rather sleep so that I can have a better tomorrow. I had no buy my top up card and the concession stamp. Too much things need me to do. And there’s so little time for me. I wish it’s still holiday at the moment. So that I can face such things at a later time. Yes, I’m running away from reality and I don’t wish to face it. But someone will say to me that sooner or later I’ll have to face, why not face it now, solve it now where I can have a better life in the near future no matter what place I’m in. I know it’s a coward thing to run away from problems that comes to me. Sometimes I’m just not ready or too tire to face anything. Just anything. Again like from what my previous journal had said, I have never taste what is happiness before. Not in the past, now and even in the far future. I can guarantee that. Sometimes I foresee my future. I think that’s what going to happen for the rest of my life. It’s been such a long time since I typed such a long journal. I can’t remember for how long. I hope tomorrow will be a better day for me. May God Bless the small, small me. Amen.