Today is the first day of my September holidays. I had long for it for so long. But for the whole of this week, I had to go back to school for some workshops. Gaining points at the same time. Meeting Hwee Wun over at Red hill train station. Hope she will not be late. Today’s workshop will end at 5. Feeling rather sleepy at the moment. I’m on the train right now, and it’s so crowded. Lucky I downloaded some songs over the weekend. Chalet is coming and I’m excited. But as for the camp, I don’t expect much from it. It’s just an extra work for me. Labor’s work with no pay at all. I don’t feel like checking my school mail later on. I don’t think I can handle anymore “surprises”. I think I’ll faint and die on the spot if I open any of the mail.
I was just wondering if today is just going to be me and Hwee Wun attending this workshop. I mean the people from my class. I wonder if Leong Yong is attending. Because if it’s just the two of us will be boring. Three people will have more topics to talk. Somehow I feel that this class have step into my world just like the pervious class. Though it’s not that deep, but still has the feeling. I had always thought that this class is just nothing and the bonding was like crap. Now the way I’m feeling now is totally different from what’s on my mind days ago. I think I’ll send the song I’ll listen at the moment to Hwee Wun and Leong Yong. Good things must share around.
I suddenly remember what my mum said to me recently, while we were about to sleep. My mum now sleeping in my room. Due to some circumstances between her and my dad. Back to what I was about to type in here, my mum told me that I should go and do some volunteer work when I graduate. I mean when I find myself a job. She said people like me should go to such places and make friends with the people there. The people there are like me. But what she really meant was if I was able to make any friends there, then I won’t get any bullies from anyone anymore. She’s just tired to know that I’m always the one get bully and getting hurt. And then didn’t want to fight back to protect myself. I had always wanted to be strong and instead people protecting me, I want to protect myself and them all. But seems like I wasn’t able to do that.
Deep inside me, I’m feeling something is awakening. Something which had been seal within me is going to be awake soon. I have been having weird dreams recently. I hope it just my imaginations. I’m feeling like I seem to know everything from the past. Even things which was way before I was born. Its 745 now, I’m still on the train going to change to another line the next stop in order to get to my destination.