Just came out of the bathroom, feel so nice after bathing. I have a lot of things want to write in here, but it’s just too long to write all down here. And also the things happened long ago, which was weeks before my 2 week holiday. Feeling rather down today, and locked myself in my bedroom the whole day, didn’t want to talk, didn’t want to eat, and let alone the idea of going out. I hate to go out on the weekends, because everywhere I go it’s full of people. I don’t like crowded places and the place I decide to go is so noisy. So I choose to stay at home and have another day of my quiet time all by myself. Listening to songs, watch my favorite Taiwan idol dramas, and play maple.
It was a bad day for me. I won’t want to say the actual reason of why I’m feeling down. But even when I went in to maple, there are players criticizing me. How suck my character look and how my character skills suck. Things weren’t going very well for me all day long till there was a player called “ilkypIgs” came and talk to me. Asking me why I’m still a beginner instead of taking job advancement. I told him I wanted to but it’s just that there some other areas that my points still not up so I couldn’t get a job. He taught me a lot of things like what area I should add my point on and so on. Though the conversation between the two of us was short, but it just lightens up my mood. At least he won’t criticize me like other players. So I really want to thank him for teaching me all the things he knew and the concern. He might not be able to read this entry, but still I want to thank him.
Seriously speaking, I have a feeling as if he’s someone I know. But feeling is feeling, it’s just fate that we both met at the same channel and at the correct he lightens up my mood. So mainly this entry will be just for him, dedicate to him, ilykpIgs.
P.S: it’s been a long time ever since I thought of committing suicide. And today, I really wanted to do so, I felt like as if I have walk to the end of my journey and it’s time for me to end this painful journey.