I’m feeling rather worried and sad now. Because my sis gal was admitted to the hospital since Saturday till now. My sis told me that her gal got some kind of illness which cannot be cure due genetic side. I’m worried because her fever keeps coming on and off. And I’m sad because she’s just a 5 year old little gal and has to suffer this. I’m not going to blame anyone because it cannot be blame. Anson was right about something which he told me few days ago, he said it’s FATE. This is something every one of us can’t run from it. We have to accept the fact no matter how cruel it is to us.
Deep down inside my heart, I’m struggling to do so. Trying to face the reality once again. I’ve locked myself up from reality and immerse into my own world. No matter I have friends or not, from that time onwards, the long of being surrounding by friends had gone with the wind. I must apologize to the people who read this entry; I don’t mean anything just that I’m really disappointed in some ways. Come back to what I was saying, actually I admit that (I don’t want to fake it up), I blamed the situation to my sis husband. If he hadn’t got that illness, the poor gal won’t have to go through this at all. Heartache is all I can describe at this point of time.
I have always prayed that my sis 2 kids will be strong and healthy, so that they could live normally like other children do. There will be always smiles on their faces and don’t have to keep falling sick and eat tons of medicine. Every time I see them, they always eat medicine. Their immune systems are far too weak, and sometimes even after visiting the doctor, the medicine prescribed to them don’t even work. I’m really very sad when my sis told me that the nurse and the doctor over at the hospital had to put the poor gal in the ice bed and bath in cold water. Millions increase to billions of needles poking inside me. The ache was indescribable, she was so fragile and I know that she won’t be able to take it. In the morning my sis took a photo of her and sent in to me through MMS. She told me her gal was feeling better. Who knows that the fever came back at night.
I think I better end this entry now. Going to feel even worse if I continue. May GOD bless my poor precious gal to be strong and healthy again. Don’t take her smiles and the right to enjoy her life from her. Give it to her, she deserves to live happily and healthy as she make no sins at all.