Hello everyone….! Yes, yes I know, I know. I haven’t been posting any of my daily “reflection journal” in here for a long time. Sorry for that. Been kind of busy recently. Going out with friends and going back to school for workshop, blah blah blah… I just realized something; my chat box is full of cobwebs…! Oh my God! Anyway, I’m in some troubles recently too. I don’t want to state anything here, my good friends’ will all know what happened and I’m feeling very guilty right now.
I feel like I’d hurt someone’s feeling. I’m such a sinner to be. What can I do to amend my mistakes and be guilt free? Maybe using the term “guilt free” isn’t correct. But I can’t find any other words to replace it. I saw his nick this morning; I don’t know if he meant anything, if he does, I don’t know if the person he was referring to was me. I don’t know anything at all at this moment. I hope he wasn’t but my six senses were telling me that he indeed was referring to me. I did not mean it, and didn’t do it on purpose. I only wanted to be just friends. Am I wrong or is it wrong to be just friends? I don’t know, the main reason was I don’t know anything. I don’t know if he really mean in that way. If he really means it in this way, I hope he should say it out to me. I don’t want to keep going in circles and guessing whether is this or that what he means. It’s a torture for me and him. I only want to know the truth that’s all, is that so difficult? And I don’t want to because of this matter, we can’t be friends anymore.
It hurts me if the both of us can’t be friends. It’s like a couple breaking up and refusing to talk to each other just like becoming enemies. I don’t want that to happen. It’s frustrating to be like this. I can’t do anything and I don’t know anything. I told Steven about this matter, and he said the matter is not that worse as I think of, I mean the consequences. He will try to help out and see what he can do. Really feeling very guilty about towards him. God, what should I do? Give me hints and guide me through this matter. I wish that I can have another chance, so that I could make it clear if not really accept him. He’s not a bad guy, I’m the one who’s being choosy and being the bad person here. Oh God, please help me.
I just bought a new mini slim black keyboard from Slim Lim Square today afternoon. Went to Steven’s shop, the place where he work and he gave me a discount. Must really thank him for that. Oops, almost forgot, to Zombie also. Thanks guys…