Anyway it's raining heavily over at my place, real heavy. And the thunders are real loud too. I'm grounded to stay at home in order to prevent my personal "SARS" to anyone who comes near me. I'm not getting better at all. Seriously, what's wrong with the medicine that the doctor gave me? It's totally not working at all. Whatever!!! Anyway, I went to my friend's birthday celebration last Saturday evening along with a group of my ITE friends. Seriously to those people reading it, sorry no offense, but I'm me. I want to write what's on my mind and what I'm feeling in here. If I have to fake, it totally has no meaning isn't it so? So I choose to be myself rather than faking to be someone else nice and understanding in here. So if you think that you'll be offended by what I'm going say below no matter it's you or your friends or whosoever, my ADVICE to you is to stop reading. If you going to read then don't get offended or say that I shouldn't have say something like this, because you can choose what you want, you have been given a choice to stop or continue and most of all, I had already given you my advice. So if you're feeling your blood boiling to the boiling point, there's nothing I can do or say and it's not my fault for you guys to feel this way. This is MY blog, I get to say what I want to say deep within my heart.

Okay back to the celebration which I said earlier. I was supposed to meet up with Rachel at Sengkang Bus Interchange at around 5pm (I rounded off the time), but I have no idea who else is joining us, I meaning meeting the both of us and set off together. I knew that Rachel was going to be late for some kind of six sense from me, and I knew that she will forget to bring along the birthday present with her and will have to go back home to take it out again. She's always absent minded; anyway that's how she is. (Sorry sexy, but you don't see me yelling at you for being late). Anyway, since I knew that she will be late and I really don't seems to mind, I decided to take available seats and start scribbling something onto my notebook (I had it prepared anyway). And to tell the truth, I had this feeling that Francis is going to join us during the journey (I don't want to hide people's identity since I'm going to let it all out here).

After minutes of writing, I looked up because I heard someone's talking very loudly. I'm not very surprise to see whom I saw on the window reflection. And there goes my lovely day, the first person I saw was him, yes, Francis a.k.a "THE GREAT LORD OF ANNOYANCE" (at least to me). I just couldn't stand the sight of him and talking loudly on the phone just like an old man, but I didn't bother to look at him after that ONE look (the way he dressed made him looked like one too that day). I quickly shut my notebook and shoved it into my bag once again (I don't want him to over look at what I was writing on my notebook since I know he's a real busybody and will want to look at people's privacy without getting acknowledgement, also to prevent him from asking stupid and annoying questions - in all certain areas). I did not turn off my music since I do not wish to have any conversation with him, i rather self entertain myself. I don't feel like talking anyway since I just took my medicine before I came out, and it caused drowsiness so I remained silent and look rather restless while waiting for the rest to come by.

By this time I was leaning on the pillar to be exact since I sit for too long and standing up was the best solution I could think of to make my blood circulation go better. Out of no where he suddenly came over to me and asked 'why I looked so SIAN?" I don't think I need to have a reason or I don't think I should give him a reason. He's not someone really close to me that I think it'll be relevant to provide a reason. I didn't even bother to reply him and pretended that I didn't hear him. Maybe he saw what I was trying to do, but he kept waving his hand in front my poor eyes which were so desperately trying to look at some places and in not his directions. My plan was a success and he finally leave me alone, but before he did so, I heard him mumbled saying I'm crazy. What the hell is his problem?! I can have my choice of choosing who I want to talk with. Normally I would shot him with my death glares and stabbed him to death with my daggers, but that day I chose not to, because if I do so, I would be giving him a chance to have a never-ending, irritating, stupid and childish conversation with me. I don't want that, I don't want anymore stuffs or anything which you guys can make up of. Thanks but I had enough of such stupidity since the day I came around to notice that the friendship between me and he was kind of spooky "weird". And he should count himself lucky that I didn't do any life threatening to him since I just got discharged on Friday.

I couldn't understand why he has to fantasize in such a way. It was such a good friendship and now it's like total strangers and I one less good guy friend from ITE ever since that rotten like shit relationship with that a**hole. I don't wish to talk to him anymore because I don't want him to get the wrong idea again. Once is enough for me, or let's just say I'm not a trouble taker in this way. When all the people arrived, we decided to walk around the shopping mall before taking the bus to katib. I kept a real good distance from him and I seriously don't want him to be close. So I walked around popular aimlessly till I decided to go for a "treasure hunt" under the books sections. I grabbed a booked I always wanted and went on finding other "treasures". I came to this section about computers, but sadly I did have the book I want. Anyway, there’s always a place called library in this world. I did a rather good job in disappearing into the crowd so that no one notices where I am till Rachel called up to look for me. And if I had know that he joining the group, i would have just went alone by myself. And I saw him hopping around while we gathered around to sing birthday song which DISGUSTED me even more.

During the whole journey, I laughed at Rachel, Shirley and her boyfriend conversation. I joined in some of it till we had to alight the bus. The celebration was fun, chatted a lot and all of us gang up and made fun of Alex "THE SWEET EATER" the whole time. We almost threw him in the pool too. But the only thing was I'm drowsy from my medication. Since I took another one after my dinner, and because I did not rest after taking the medicine, I was so "high". After that few of us went to NYP (NEW YORK PIZZA for your information) to have something to eat. I was famished in certain ways. Well that’s how I spent my Saturday evening and the way I felt.

Anyway on the way to katib, I told Rachel about something which I think shocked her life span quite a bit. I told her that EVAD (I'm protecting this person identity please) was divorced and hoping I could joined him there if I want to take a degree in London. I'm still considering of whether I want to go and if I want to take a degree regardless of whether if EVAD is there a not. The expenses living overseas are exceptionally high. Anyway, I don't think the both of us can go back to how we used to be, things just changed and I feel bitterly sorry for his ex-wife. On the other hand, his parents were celebrating their son "FINALLY COME BACK TO SENSES DAY". I took my hats off them, how could they be so happy when it's their son fault of marrying of someone whom he doesn't love and then broke her heart to pieces. I really had no idea what in the world are they thinking on their mind. I give up.

I think I can write a novel or something considering my entry for this was 3 pages long! Scary isn’t it?

P.S: EVAD please for the love of God, follow your heart and do whatever your heart truly feels. Don't go everywhere and hurt anymore people. Don't make me call start calling you jack a** , cause I don’t want to.