I'm typing this entry in this early morning, because I have the time to do so now. The sky has been so grey and raindrops just came falling down from the moment *I stepped out of my house today. Listening to this particular song called "yu ji kai shi le" I’m very sorry for not able to write in Chinese characters, as my blog page doesn’t show them out*. This song reminds me of something that I hide somewhere in my memory box. It's so amazing that a single song can brings up memories of oneself which has been thrown away for a long time. How long has it been since that day? I don't know, never went to count the days. But I think it has been for almost 3 years to pass. Just like what my msn nick has said, "I'm very sure that I've walked out the pain, but why is it that I can't move on?" Well, I've been asking this question myself for a thousand and a million of times, but I can't find the answer to it. It's not because I still have feeling for that bastard *opps, sorry for the usage of words*, but just that the pain he gave me like 3 years ago was beyond words to describe. Blame it on me for putting my feelings too much and relying on him for so much as well. And it's not easy task to just say step out and move on. People always says, "Actions are bigger than words", but in this case, "Actions are harder than sayings". I spent like an eternity to get rid of it though it's just a short few months. My life has never been the same like it used to. Ups and downs, full of excitement waiting for me *especially downfalls*. I've completely forgotten him and treat him like nothing, but there still some people like to remind me of him and my past. I can't say out that I don't like it when they say so, because they are just joking with me, but I just don't like it, I'm trying my best not to think of it especially that pain he had given me. PLEASE PEOPLE; DON’T SAY ANYTHING ABOUT MY PAST WITH HIM ANYMORE! IT'S NOT THAT EVERYONE CAN BE REALLY COLD BLOODED AND IGNORANT! THANK YOU. *I'm not trying to point anyone in here, but there are really people really keep doing so to me.* The rain this morning was like reflecting my emotions and feelings. I really have a lot of things to say, but I can't do it in here. My page here isn't safe and personal anymore. Whatever I typed in here isn't a secret to myself and to the contacts in my list anymore and this isn't my world anymore. I'm tire of creating new page again and again just to avoid people from reading what I type in here other than the contacts I have allowed. And I HATE PEOPLE WHO ONLY READ AND NOT TAG, JUST COME AND GO. PEOPLE IF YOU WANT TO READ, PLEASE TAG, IF NOT GET OUT! I'm ending right here, I don't know what else I can continue to write since I'm feeling in such a way from the moment I woke up this morning. P.S.: those bolds words are really from the bottom of my heart.